My Own Hell

I feel like I'm slipping again.

I don't know what I feel anymore.
I don't know what I'm going through
What this is.
I don't know.

I'm scared.
I'm crying.
My thoughts are racing.
I'm somewhat confused.
I could almost dig my eyes out wishing for it to stop.

Reminds me of "My Own Hell" by Five Finger Death Punch.
(...Except without the suicidal or homicidal urges.)

I feel so out of control.
I can't put a label on this.
It makes me uncomfortable.
It makes me want to pull my hair out.

I can barely put any of this into words.
This is probably not all that coherent.

I need help.